Saturday, 26 May 2012

  • champions

    the majority of today was spent feeling bloated and mopey and empty and listless and i blame these bad feelings on post season hangover

    i am so proud of everyone though. vjfbgirls2012 are the best. and we can do anything because we are champions. i love everyone. clar nat ali joey cherie bel carol thena ashley nadia sam keng cheryl zhenyi marie shay irene. honestly i really had no idea they meant so much to me now my life seems pale. i am such a sappy sod

    i cannot believe it is over. i was lying in bed today unsure of what to do

    someone tell me how to survive the june holidays which i am supposed to spend studying my ass off. how does one study one's ass off.

    oh my god i cannot do that. but i need to fffffff life i will die of boredom i swear i will
    oh
    mai
    gourd

    seems rly bleak

    ok tonight i will work on my success plan. project rise from the ashes. rfta.
    ok i can do this

Thursday, 24 May 2012

  • do we have different capacities for tolerance for different people. account for this. i am imagining this to be a 15 mark essay question

    how about strangers

    does everyone start off equal
    objectively i would like to say yes but it is likely in reality the answer is no because if you are 'good looking' you get more tolerance because human beings are naturally superficial. am i right to say that

    seems really unfair though
    i have found some good looking people to be extremely annoying and they wear my tolerance thinner than a layer of butter on toast

    the more serious question now is
    am i going to be late for school

    just did something like really extremely retarded

Sunday, 20 May 2012

  • i pwn ali at dance dance revolution

    re secondary school days i guess what i 'miss' most is being in close proximity with the people whose company i enjoy best

    just spent close to an hour laughing really hard with yuan and varsha over whatsapp reminiscing the epic shit that happened

    may not speak of those days much/ match the enthusiasm levels when others speak of their sec school days but those years were special indeed. for all the people who i did stupid shit with, trying to ride the 'yolo'-waves at 13/14

    i think we were pretty damn awesome

Friday, 18 May 2012

Thursday, 17 May 2012

  • you used to have all the answers

    existential crisis part infinity. it is a joke, i think of it as a 'teenage feeling', to feel low and sad and lousy and unworthy of existing.

    (these exist in my head only. it is all me conjuring up false things because i have nothing better to do. it is so lame i am so lame i should stop it)

    the worst thing is when you are on the verge of spilling, of exploding but not at that specific point yet. like a hair away from the maximum mark, sitting on the verge of the verge

    listening to the xx now. sorry to future self if you are reading this

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

  • of monsters and men

    i feel like i cannot feel properly. i find myself perched in the awkward in-between, in the middle of two extremes. nothing cuts quite deep enough but i possess the knowledge that this should matter, that this, perhaps, should generate negative feelings but all it does is fire blanks attempting to shock me. it amounts to nothing because i am still this person in this version.

    tonight i am giving off 'bad vibes', an accumulation of 'not-ok' situations from the day.

    created a playlist titled: you are in the countryside. the songs feel like a remedy

    i just want to feel ok really
    i want to feel ok
    i want to feel ok
    i want
    i want

Sunday, 13 May 2012

Tuesday, 08 May 2012

  • avengers was a good movie

    been having a string of above-average days but i can make out the end of this thread and i don't know what is ahead

    i feel like a lot of things are changing and are going to change and i am struggling to hold on to them but my hands are full and things slip off

    the problem is i cannot pick up everything i drop

    what if i destroy every single clock and watch in the world. everyone will break out in pandemonium and then maybe time will stop and there will be a way out of this

  • whathecake.

    hi my name is Candia it is nice to meet you.